unexpected day...

-.- yes... was feeling bad... feeling down... blog the previous short entry the first thing i woke up.. msged yaosheng.. coz we were msgin last nite.. msging and talking to someone always make me feels better.. take my mind off the issue ma.. anw, right after i blogged.. yes right after... its only 8am...he juz sent his gf to sch...  my goodness... and 8.15am he reach yewtee liao! -.- anw, he waited for me at the foodcourt there.. so i practically juz wear my contacts and fly down to meet him le.. drank at mac.. talked... ^^ glad he shared his past with me... was relieved that the atmosphere wasnt 'too cold' haha... then he came up my hse.. coz i wanted to put my things.. then ya.. he was there looking thru my brother's work and talking to my mum and playing with jiale.. =) 11am went down lot1.. kbox.. haha... throat already dying after yest ktv and my cough.. today sit down there till 2.30pm somemore... he treated me... thanks so much.. took his time to pei me and entertain me.. lol.. after that he rushed off to meet his gf le.. so sweet of him... tink he's gf should be very fortunate ba.. ^^ am glad i have one more closer friend i can talk to now.. =) everyone's busy... i'll be soon... imagine... my fyp... making of NDP... im suppose to go sch and go kallang to film at the same time for the entire holidays and next sem... -.- how am i going to get home late at niteS and then go sch to study and rush my other impt assignments? and i lost the support... but perhaps i'll still have the support from kor ba.. ^^ and God will be there with me... ahhh... anw, gotta go study for tmrw's exam le.. not tht impt, but still.. better to look thru at least.. haha... tmrw gotta wake up early also to go for exam... hope everyone will keep me in their prayer.. heex... i love my kor.. i love my friends... cant wait for drums lesson.. simon~~ wonder if he's sneezing now.. haha...

ok.. i woke up.. it hurts like usual.. worse than sat and sun..

do i love him?

yes i do... more than ever...

loving u....

today someone ask about us again.. already wasnt feeling very nice at that moment.. so... it just so happens... hmm... i cant control my tears... =(  in front of he who asked and others... anw... thats not impt...

our relationship was not only love.. but support too... peep into my schedule right after my exams... suddenly overwhelm with fear... thats wen i realise the support i've always had with him... a bond btwn us that surpass him being there physically for me... maybe i didnt give him enough last time.. i was really lousy... i noe... many things i cant tink of how to phrase and put it here now.. juz wan to say that.. im trying... being happy and strong infront of everybody and him... i do fail at times.. slips and all.. but still.. am trying my best... it hurts as much as ever... am a friend... am a mei... i still loves him as much in the process... dun see how my love for him can fade in the near future at least... another one picking me up? perhaps ba... a nice friend or kor is the best...
am happy today that dave made some progress... little, but significant... hope next week will be better ba... aiya... forgot one point that i forgot to pour out to dave... well... hope he reminds me if he sees this... yes.. i love him... at least im better off... coz he noes it... though he juz cant accept and tinks everything is impossible, but still... one muz noe that nothing is impossible.. so the future is not seen by us... God have better plans for me? i already feel that i had the best already... i would rather hav met other people first before meeting dave.. then he'll be the one i'll spend the rest of my life with.. lol.. hope things continue getting better for him and for me ba.. at least... he's taking it lightly.. he's happy... i'll carry any other things myself... coz its my burden... but still.. i noe im not that pro... i still need to pour out and cry to him at times... >.<

haiz... how long i never take my cough med le... wan to eat now also cannot.. coz never eat my dinner.. -.- anw, was feeling quite down tonite.. until yaosheng exchange a few msgs with me.. ^^ people can make me happy quite easily huh... lol... glad to pull closer our relationship juz by the few msgs... everyone is impt to me.. esp my friends...

if asthma acts up again... i dun have inhaler with me >.<